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I don’t know if this is helpful, but I’ve found writing in pregnancy to be so difficult! I was so frustrated by it this last time that I started researching the brain changes of pregnancy and matrescence. What I found was that your grey matter shrinks during pregnancy, and then it grows again postpartum (along with your amygdala getting bigger (hello anxiety) 🙃) but the emphasis of which neural pathways are developed is different and geared heavily towards pro-social and survival behaviors. In rat studies, the same neural pathways in the brain light up when they smell their baby as when they’re given cocaine. That made me laugh — God’s design to ensure that these babies survive is pretty spectacular (although our current culture is not very well suited to some of the adaptations). It really helped me to know that my brain actually was under construction and it wasn’t just my imagination. It’ll come back! Trust that good groundwork is being laid ❤️

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I love that you gave me a neuroscience answer!!! This is fascinating and very, very encouraging. Thank you!

I'm excited because I have three profiles of local authors and musicians, who are also Christians coming out soon (that I didn't write) and then four beautiful writers are going to write me some essays about friendships in the season of motherhood, for immediately postpartum. So I'm leaning into the mush and commissioning some stuff that I would like to read, in the hope that words will return. They always do.

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Back when I was in my childbearing years, I was not trying to write more than a personal journal, and that was never a daily thing. But after a few pregnancies I began to notice a pattern, which continued through five of them: I rarely wrote a word in the journal when I was pregnant. This was curious to me, and over the years as I've wondered about it, I think it has something to do with creativity. I was unconsciously but holistically completely fulfilled and happy, when all of me body and soul was engaged in making a new human being. I didn't need the outlet of creating sentences or working through my thoughts and feelings with pen and paper.

I can't imagine what my life as a wife and mother would have been like, if I'd had the internet and a computer keyboard with word processor back then. Because of the way our world is now, I don't know if my experience will contribute anything to your understanding of your own situation, you being someone who is already in the habit of writing a lot. But instead of thinking of your brain as mush, you might consider that your brain -- as another organ of your body and not the whole of you -- is just taking a back seat to other organs for a time. God bless your family and give you peace <3

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Aww thank you for these kind words Joanna. I really appreciate your wisdom!

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Keep writing :)

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Thanks!

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Wow…finally found relatable words from another writer mum!!! My brain also dissolved into mush during pregnancy and it was the most frustrating yet humbling thing! 🫠 I’m now three years postpartum and it’s only been the last couple of months where I’ve felt the mum fog lifting and I can hold a coherent and linear thought!

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Oh I’m so glad it’s not just me, and that you found it helpful! Pregnancy breaks my brain every time and it is humbling when I’ve always been proud of my ability to think 😫🤦🏼‍♀️ I ended up writing a whole essay about it (after getting an iron infusion in pregnancy haha)

https://open.substack.com/pub/thesundaymorningsnuggle/p/on-laundry-and-accepting-care?r=372bj&utm_medium=ios

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There was a whole lot of head nodding while I read these words! Currently in my second trimester and feel so similarly. I’m trying to let it be… while also challenging myself to practice until the next idea comes 🤪

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Congrats on your pregnancy! Glad I’m not the only one struggling with words + pregnancy combo. But I’m with you, just trying to plod along and practice where I can.

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So relatable on so many levels!

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Thanks Joelle!! 💛💛

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Love this Bec! I found that I was creatively inspired in the first trimester because I slowed down and napped a lot and then had nothing to give in the second and third. Post partum I have so. many. ideas. that come to me when I'm feeding in a dark room (like my last poem!) but lack the time to refine it and get it out there. But writing is so therapeutic! I can't help it either. And I think you've mentioned this to me before, to just write it down on a Google doc and then work with it when you can. Love this prompt - it made me smile 😊 pregnancy and birth and post partum is such a wild and wonderful ride!

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Thanks so much Kym! Glad to hear you are jotting ideas down into Google docs when they come! Good to know that words came back postpartum 😅😅

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Oof. This one resonated!! I am 38 weeks pregnant right now and feeling the same way… it’s like every creative writing brain cell I once had is gone. And this after two iron infusions ;)

Hang in there mama!!! We got this!

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Hahaha good to know it is not just me! Annelise commented with the brain science, and man, it just makes me feel better. Words will come again! 💛💛

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Almost four months postpartum here after baby #2. Definitely struggled with ideas my whole pregnancy. Now in the phase where I have so many ideas, but struggle to find the time with a 2-year-old and infant. The words will keep coming, I’m sure. ☺️ Also, definitely thinking I may need to use this prompt myself sometime soon.

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Glad to hear I'm not the only one. Congrats on your new baby!! I think this is it, I trust that the words will come eventually, but this was a fun prompt to at least hammer out why I was feeling so stuck. Love to see your version out in the world one day 💛

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Oh, please do keep writing. Your words mean so much to me, and I know I am not the only one. You are feeling a LOT right now and getting ready for a big change in your life. All of what you write is understandable. I hope you can find your way forward in a way that gives you life and peace. ❤️

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Aww thanks Erin. I will definitely keep writing! I think this prompt was helpful in just considering all that makes it hard, but I've never been able to stop writing. I love it.

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I really think you should keep writing. It’s such a gift of yours. But also I did laugh at some of your reasons for not being able to write. I’m not even trying to write but I can relate

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Hahaha aww thanks Britt! I'll definitely keep writing, it's basically impossible for me to stop really. It's how I function. It was just a fun prompt to remind myself of all the things that get in the way sometimes.

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Love this Bec! I found that I was creatively inspired in the first trimester because I slowed down and napped a lot and then had nothing to give in the second and third. Post partum I have so. many. ideas. that come to me when I'm feeding in a dark room (like my last poem!) but lack the time to refine it and get it out there. But writing is so therapeutic! I can't help it either. And I think you've mentioned this to me before, to just write it down on a Google doc and then work with it when you can. Love this prompt - it made me smile 😊 pregnancy and birth and post partum is such a wild and wonderful ride!

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Love this Bec! I found that I was creatively inspired in the first trimester because I slowed down and napped a lot and then had nothing to give in the second and third. Post partum I have so. many. ideas. that come to me when I'm feeding in a dark room (like my last poem!) but lack the time to refine it and get it out there. But writing is so therapeutic! I can't help it either. And I think you've mentioned this to me before, to just write it down on a Google doc and then work with it when you can. Love this prompt - it made me smile 😊 pregnancy and birth and post partum is such a wild and wonderful ride!

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